It's Very Expensive To Be Me. It's

For Some Reason, People Think I Am This Terrible Person And It Really Hurts Me To Hear That. I Am Just Doing The Best I Know How To.

If I Have Another Child, I Doubt I'll Get Married Again. I Don't Think Men Particularly Want To Be With Me.

I Have Been Alone Since My Husband Died. I Stay In My Home. I Don't Date. It's Hard To Date When You're At Home. Nobody Knows You.

It's Very Expensive To Be Me.

He's Comming To Meet Me On Sun. Cant Wait!!... Please God Let Him Love Me!!... This Could Be It [followed By Five Happy Faces].... Hes Going To Publish My Pictures Im So Glad I Didn't Sleep With Him Either!... I Hate For Men To Want Sex All The Time. I Hate Sex Anyway. (1992, Diary Entry As She Prepares For A Meeting With Paul Marciano, Head Of Guess.)