I Knew In My Gut That There

I Did Not Want To Reject Religion As Nonsense Because Life Seemed To Have No Ultimate Purpose Without It, And Most Of The Good People I Knew Were Christians.

I Have Decided To Follow In My Sinful Ways, And Have Largely Abandoned The Increasingly Religious Life I Was Leading Over The Previous Months, Including Several Hours Of Talmudic Study A Day.

My Habit Of Glorifying Things Far Away In Space And Time, Also Contributed To My Social Isolation.

In My Right-wing Politics Of The Time, I Held That Unemployment Was Usually The Fault Of The Unemployed.

At The Time I Perceived Most Religious Men, Particularly The Pastors With All Their Talk About Love, Faith And Relationship, As Effeminate.