I Had Some Experience In Dealing With

Sport That Consumed Me For Over Two Decades . . . Is Now Gone. Now It's Just Me. No Pressure, No Expectations, No Need To Be Fast, Good, Strong Or To Even Improve. Yet I Can't Let Go Of This Idea That I Always Need To Be More Than I Am. And It Is Eating Me Alive.

I've Been In Sport For 15 Years Now And I'm Actually Shocked At The Changes. We Had All These Things, But We Couldn't Utilize Them. They Were Not Accessible To Us. They're Actually Accessible Right Now.

With Athletes, It's Never Fully Understood The Level To Which We Push Ourselves. Especially In An Endurance Sport.

My Goal Is To Try To Avoid A Regular Job.

Ive Had So Many Experiences In Cycling, But In Some Ways I Have Nothing Left To Prove. I Have Achieved More Than I Could Have Dreamed Of, Ive Raced A Lot Longer Than I Thought I Would. I Know I Can Still Be Better, But I Just Dont Know If I Love It Enough Any More.