But I Couldn't Help Myself, Couldn't Help

Knowing Lissa Missed Me Hurt Almost More Than If She'd Completely Written Me Off. I'd Never Wanted To Hurt Her. Even When I'd Resented Her For Feeling Like She Was Controlling My Life, I'd Never Hated Her. I Loved Her Like A Sister And Couldn't Stand The Thought Of Her Suffering Now On My Behalf. How Had Things Gotten So Screwed Up Between Us?

Isn’t It Obvious, Sage? No, Of Course It Isn’t. I Did It So I’d Have A Reason To Be Around You — One I Knew You Couldn’t Refuse.

No, But ..." But I Had Felt Something From Another Person. Someone Who Spent Time With Alec. The Last Card In My Head Flipped Over. "i Know Who It Is. It's Him. That Guy." "of Course," Said Carter Dryly. "i Knew It Was That Guy. It's Always That Guy.

ʺyour Hair Was Beautiful Too. All Of You. You Were Amazing When We First Met, And Somehow, Inexplicably, Youʹve Come Even Farther. Youʹve Always Been Pure, Raw Energy, And Now You Control It. Youʹre The Most Amazing Woman Iʹve Ever Met, And Iʹm Glad To Have Had That Love For You In My Life. I Regret Losing It.ʺ He Grew Pensive. ʺi Would Give Anything—anything—in The World To Go Back And Change History. To Run Into Your Arms After Lissa Brought Me Back. To Have A Life With You. Itʹs Too Late, Of Course, But Iʹve Accepted It.ʺ

He Glanced Over At Me, A Smile Twisting His Lips. "hey, No Advice, Ghost Girl. Guardians Should Be Seen And Not Heard." I Flipped Him Off For The "ghost Girl" Comment But He Didn't Notice Because Lissa Was Talking To Him Again.