You May Be Desperate, But Never Let

What Stays With Me Most Is A General Sense Of Loss, Unease, And Longing For The Past That Cannot Be Relieved.

Snow Flower Was My Old Same For Life. I Had A Greater And Deeper Love For Her Than I Could Ever Feel For A Person Who Was My Husband.

For My Entire Life I Longed For Love. I Knew It Was Not Right For Me — As A Girl And Later As A Woman — To Want Or Expect It, But I Did, And This Unjustified Desire Has Been At The Root Of Every Problem I Have Experienced In My Life.

He Was In My Hair, My Eyes, My Fingers, My Heart. I Day-dreamed About What He Was Doing, Thinking, Seeing, Smelling, Feeling. I Could Not Eat For Thoughts Of Him.

People Say You Need To Be Strong, Smart, And Lucky To Survive Hard Times, War, A Natural Disaster, Or Physical Torture. But I Say Emotional Abuse—anxiety, Fear, Guilt, And Degradation—is Far Worse And Much Harder To Survive.