Words Can't Say This. The One Word

I Say To Myself If You Believe Deeply In Your Heart You Must Defy, And If You Are Willing To Pay For Your Defiance, You Must Always Do It, Even Though The Pain May Be Much. Too Many Times In Our Lives We Do Not Do It, And We Pay Even More.

This Moment And This Chance, They Are The Same, And They Are Mine If I Choose Them,and I Do. I Want Them. Now And As Long As I Can Have Them They Are Both Precious And Fleeting And Gone In The Blink Of An Eye, Don't Waste Them. A Moment And An Opportunity And A Life, All In The Unseen Tick Of A Clock Holding Me Nowhere. My Heart Is Beating. The Walls Are Pale And Quiet. I Am Surviving.

America Was First Colonized By Puritans. Most Of Our Earliest Immigrants, And Many Since, Have Come Here In Order To Practice Their Religious Beliefs As They Please. Our Culture Has Always Been, And Will Most Likely Always Be, Profoundly Influenced By Religion.

I Want A Drink. I Want Fifty Drinks. I Want A Bottle Of The Purest, Strongest, Most Destructive, Most Poisonous Alcohol On Earth. I Want Fifty Bottles Of It. I Want Crack, Dirty And Yellow And Filled With Formaldehyde. I Want A Pile Of Powder Meth, Five Hundred Hits Of Acid, A Garbage Bag Full Of Mushrooms, A Tube Of Glue Bigger Than A Truck, A Pool Of Gas Large Enough To Drown In. I Want Something Anything Whatever However As Much As I Can.

Whatever Hardships There Have Been In My Life I Still Live In A Very Privileged Position. Fear Is Not Knowing Where Your Next Meal Is Coming From. Fear Is Seeing A Child Get Hurt. Fear Is Watching Someone You Love Waste Away. Fear Is Knowing You Are Going To Die Yourself. But There's No Fear In What I Do. I Write Books.