Will You Be?” I Asked, Suddenly Anxious.

I Flicked On The Light Beside My Bed, Waiting For My Breathing To Slow, Veins Full Of Adrenaline From The Realistic Dream. A New Dream, But In Essence So Much The Same As The Many Others That Had Plagued Me In The Past Months. No, Not A Dream. Surely A Memory. I Could Still Feel The Heat Of Jared's Lips On Mine. My Hands Reached Out Without My Permission, Searching Across The Rumpled Sheets, Looking For Something They Didn't Find. My Heart Ached When They Gave Up, Falling To The Bed Limp And Empty.

What Was It That Made This Human Love So Much More Desirable To Me Than The Love Of My Own Kind? Was It Because It Was Exclusive And Capricious? The Souls Offered Love And Acceptance To All. Did I Crave A Greater Challenge?...or Was It Simply Better Somehow? Because These Humans Hate With So Much Fury, Was The Other End Of The Spectrum That They Could Love With More Heart And Zeal And Fire?

I Was Just Thinking – Today Is The First And Last Day Of Forever. It’s Kind Of Hard To Wrap My Head Around It. Even With All This Extra Room For Wrapping.

Don't Let Anyone Tell You That High School Is Supposed To Be Fun. High School Is To Be Endured. College Is Fun.

I Can Do This, I Lied To Myself Feebly. No One Was Going To Bite Me.