When You Stop Putting Yourself On The

I Survived This Torture Which Left Me Paralyzed For Years. That's What That Night Was All About, Mutilation, More Than Violence Through Sex. I Really Do Feel As Though I Was Psychologically Mutilated That Night And Now I'm Trying To Put The Pieces Back Together Again. Through Love, Not Hatred. And Through My Music. My Strength Has Been To Open Again, To Life, And My Victory Is The Fact That, Despite It All, I Kept Alive My Vulnerability.

In Order For My Live Performance To Work, Which Is About Generating A Focused Energy For About An Hour And A Half, It Is Necessary For Me To Listen And Take In Someone Else's Focused Energy The Day Of Or The Day Before The Live Show. That Can Transpire Through A Conversation, Or Inspiration Can Occur By Looking Through Any Type Of Visual Book Which Sparks A Narrative. That Narrative Then Becomes Today's Seed And Can Then Take Root In Music Terms, Where A Sonic Tree Begins To Grow.

Being Able To Hear An Opinion. And Then How To Apply That Opinion Is Something I Am Learning And Working With Every Day. What Can Be Tricky Is How To Differentiate A Good Suggestion That You Should Apply To Your Work [from] Someone's Personal Taste At Their Opinionated Best.

I Think You Have To Know Who You Are. Get To Know The Monster That Lives In Your Soul, Dive Deep Into Your Soul And Explore It.

I Wanted To Marry Lucifer... I Don't Consider Lucifer An Evil Force...i Feel His Presence With His Music. I Feel Like He Comes And Sits On My Piano.