We're Taught To Be Ashamed Of Confusion,

That I Would Be Loved Even When I Numb Myself. That I Would Be Good Even When I Am Overwhelmed. That I Would Be Loved Even When I Was Fuming. That I Would Be Good Even If I Was Clingy.

I Didn't Want To Be One Of Those Women Who Wake Up At 63 Years Old And Realize They've Missed The Window Of Opportunity For Marriage And Children.

If I Have Taken Part In Anything Perceived As The Fame Machine, It's Been My Choice. My Motivations Certainly Have Been Different From Some People's That I've Worked With. But It's Okay To Work Equally Passionately For Two Different Reasons.

Getting Married And Starting A Family Has Been A Lifelong Goal And One That I Have Persevered Through Different Paths Up To It!

When I'm In Pain And Grief And Despair, My Throat Is Clenched And My Heart Hurts.