The Bravest Soldiers Aren't Unafraid, But They're

My Mother Killed Herself When I Was 12. I Won't Complete That Relationship. But I Can Try To Understand Her.

I Will Go To My Grave Regretting The Photograph Of Me In An Anti-aircraft Carrier [actually, It Was In An Anti-aircraft Gun Emplacement, Not A Carrier], Which Looks Like I Was Trying To Shoot At American Planes. [actually, That Was Her Intention In Posing For The Photograph The Way She Did.] It Hurt So Many Soldiers. It Galvanized Such Hostility. It Was The Most Horrible Thing I Could Possibly Have Done. It Was Just Thoughtless.

I Am Convinced That We Become What We Do.

I Always Tried, In The Books I Wrote, To Make It Clear: Thin Is Not The Goal. But I Was Thin. So No Matter What I Said, The Subliminal Message Was, "you Have To Look A Certain Way." And I'm Not Happy About Playing Into That.

All My Life I Had Believed That Unless I Was Perfect I Would Not Be Loved.