Now I Feel Like Whatever I Do,

I'd Say That I've Been Reclusive The Last 34 Years. That Was My Big Thing As A Kid, Staying Home From School. I've Trained Myself To Be Psychosomatically Sick A Lot. Anytime I Go Out, It Is Just Something To Deal With, Even Walking To The Grocery Store. If I'm Supposed To Go From One Place To Another Place That Isn't That Comfortable, I Usually Don't Go.

I Want To Be Like The Patron Saint Of Reality.

I Caved In To What People Wanted Me To Do. I Thought That They Weren't Going To Like Me If I Didn't.

Put A Little Love Here In My Void.

I Got Into Therapy In The Fifth Grade Because I Said In A Sarcastic Way That I Was Going To Kill Myself, And They Didn't Get It Then. Nothing's Changed.