Love Only Brought Me Lonliness And Horror.

Some People Think Memoirs Should Be Held To A Perfect Journalistic Standard. Some People Don't. Obviously I Don't. My Goal Was Never To Create Or To Write A Perfect Journalistic Standard Of My Life. It Was Always To Be As Literature.

I Listen To The Tick Of An Unseen Clock Marking Moments Of Time Long Passed.

Whatever Hardships There Have Been In My Life I Still Live In A Very Privileged Position. Fear Is Not Knowing Where Your Next Meal Is Coming From. Fear Is Seeing A Child Get Hurt. Fear Is Watching Someone You Love Waste Away. Fear Is Knowing You Are Going To Die Yourself. But There's No Fear In What I Do. I Write Books.

I Stand, Walk Over To Him, Sit Down On His Bed, Put My Arms Around Him, Hug Him. He Hugs Me Back Strong And I Can Feel The Shame Coming Through His Arms. I Am A Criminal And He Is A Judge And I Am White And He Is Black, But At This Moment None Of That Matters. He Is A Man Who Needs A Friends And I Can Be His Friend.

The Calm. If There Is God Or Something Higher For Me It Is This. The Calm. If There Is Something That Will Hold Me When I Need To Hold It Is This The Calm. There Is No Anger, No Rage, No Fury. There Is No Want, No Need, No Desire. There Is No Hatred No Shame No Regret. There Is No Grief, No Sadness, No Depression. There Is No Fear. Absolutely No Fear. When One Lives Without Fear, One Cannot Be Broken. When One Lives With Fear One Is Broken Before One Begins To Live.