I Will Be Dying And So Will

Story Ideas, But It's Also Musing On Stuff That I'm Thinking About. This Leads Me To This And This Leads Me To This. They're Kind Of Random And Haphazard. Often I Can't Find Anything. Somehow, By Doing That, Even Though I Don't Necessarily Refer To Them In A Specific Way, I Have Some Sort Of Architecture In My Head.

We're All Subjective Beings And Trapped In Our Own Realities And Our Own Biographical Stories And Physical Bodies And Our Histories - And That's The Only Way We Can Experience The World.

And Also The Idea Of Not Making It Apparent That It's Different From The Rest Of The Film, Even Though There Are Visual Differences, The Audience Is Supposed To Think That They Are With Him When He Wakes Up In The Morning.

I Think That People Have Expectations Of Themselves And Other People That Are Based On These Fictions That Are Presented To Them As The Way Human Life And Relationships Could Be, In Some Sort Of Weird, Ideal World, But They Never Are. So You're Constantly Being Shown This Garbage And You Can't Get There.

When I Found Myself In That Situation - That Actors Are Like Children, I Tried To Be Successful. And When It Worked And I Figured Out How To Communicate That Things Were Good - Or At Least Okay - Then I Felt Pleased.