I Want To Collapse. I Want To

I'm Listening To Someone Give Up. Someone I Knew—someone I Liked. I'm Listening... But Still, I'm Too Late.

They Were Like Two Magnets Who Couldn't Decide Whether To Attract Or Repel.

Justin, Honey, You Were My Very First Kiss. My Very First Hand To Hold. But You Were Nothing More Than An Average Guy. And I Don't Say That To Be Mean- I Don't. There Was Just Something About You That Made Me Need To Be Your Girlfriend To This Day I Don't Know Exactly What That Was. But It Was There.. And It Was Amazingly Strong. -thirteen Reasons Why

This Time, For The First Time, I Saw The Possibilities In Giving Up. I Even Found Hope In It.

Will I Ever Get Control Of My Life? Will I Always Be Shoved Back And Pushed Around By Those I Trust?