I’m In A Shallow Hole, Not Filled

Five Years Later I Still Wake Up Screaming For Him To Run

Highly Unlikely But Not Impossible.

Really? What Did You Cost Me Again? I Ask. A Lot Of Trouble. Don't Worry. You'll Get It All Back,he Says.

My Time In The Arena Made Me Realize How I Needed To Stop Punishing [my Mother] For Something She Couldn't Help, Specifically The Crushing Depression She Fell Into After My Father's Death. Because Sometimes Things Happen To People And They're Not Equipped To Deal With Them.

But Just The Fact That He Was Sparkling Leads Me To Doubt Everything That Happened.