I Just Feel Kind Of Out Of

I've Had Two Romances Since Moving To Las Vegas. One Was With Somebody 12 Years Older Than Me, And The Other Was The Same Age, And Neither Worked Out. I Know People Still Think Of Me As One Of Hugh Hefner's Girlfriends, And He Of Course Was Much Older Than Me, But That Was A Whole Different Lifestyle And A Different Kind Of Dating.

People Assume, Because I'm Hef's Girlfriend, That I'm A Bunny And I'm A Playmate And I'm A Centerfold, But They're Different Things. If You're A Playmate Or A Centerfold, Which Is The Same Thing, You Pose For The Magazine, You Are One Particular Month, And Not Every Playmate Is A Bunny. A Bunny Is A Girl Who Used To Work At The Playboy Club, She Had The Bunny Costume, And Now That We Don't Have Playboy Clubs, It's Just Playmates Who Work Special Promotions And Are Fitted For A Bunny Costume.

All Playboy Bunnies Were Constantly Reminded That The Tv Show Was Hugh Hefner's Show - Our Contributions Were Irrelevant. We Were The Decorative Icing, Not The Cake. According To Our Boyfriend, He Could Have Splashed Any Three Blondes On-screen And Found Instant Success.

I Was Always Obsessed With Being Famous. I Had Marilyn Monroe Paper Dolls As A Child, And I Was Always Obsessed With Her. I've Just Been Really Driven In That Direction, And None Of My Friends Were. So, I Don't Know What Put That Bug In Me At A Young Age.

The Last Couple Relationships I Had Were Long Distance. It's Not Like I Can Make Much Of An Effort To Travel And See Anybody. The Guy Had To Do All The Work, Unfortunately.