I Had A Hell Of A Time

I Knew That I Was Gay, I Knew It. I Just Couldn't See Myself As A Gay Woman, Even Though That's Where My Heart Was.

I Thought That If I Accomplished Enough, That Somehow I Would Be Let Off The Hook In The Future. Like I Didn’t Have To Keep Striving And Achieving Because I Had Done That Already, And It Would Add Up To Being Enough.

When It’s Quiet In My Head Like This, That’s When The Voice Doesn’t Need To Tell Me How Pathetic I Am. I Know It In The Deepest Part Of Me. When It’s Quiet Like This, That’s When I Truly Hate Myself.

I Never, Ever, Restrict Food, And I Will Never Go On A Diet Ever Again.

I Had A Hell Of A Time Convincing People I Was Gay - Which Was So Annoying!