I Found Myself In A Pattern Of

We Did Monologues And Scenes, And New York I Did A Scene From Amadeus And A Monologue From Pounding Nails In The Floor With My Forehead By Eric Bogosian, And Then In L.a. I Switched The Scene To This Is Our Youth And Did The Same Monologue. I Was Spiky-haired, Super Skinny. A Lot Of People Were Like, "you Should Come Here And Do A Sitcom." That Was The Feedback That I Got. Obviously It Was Quite A Different Journey Than The One I've Actually Had, But I Just Listened To People.

I Also Feel Like The Kinds Of Jobs I Want Right Now - I Consider Them Aspirational. I Want To Raise The Bar For Myself, And I Am In This Interesting Spot Where I Do Get Offered A Lot Of Things, But Frankly, The Majority Of The Things I Get Offered I'm Not Really Interested In Doing. I Want To Do The Things That I Have To Fight For.

I Think The Goal Is Always To Go Deeper Within Myself, And Accept Myself On Deeper Levels And To Know Myself On Deeper Levels. Whether Or Not I Look For Roles That Are Going To Do That For Me, I Certainly Look For The Ways In Which The Roles I Get Can Do That For Me.

Maybe It's Because It's Connected To My Childhood, Or It's Connected To The Origins Of What Drove Me Creatively, But I Feel Like My Life Never Makes More Sense Than When I'm In That Process.

When I Got Out Of School, It Used To Be That It Was Theater Actors That Ended Up Doing Film And Television, And You Had To Come From The Theater To Be Taken Seriously In That World.