I Don't Want You To Leave Which

I Don't Have The Strength To Stay Away From You Anymore

I Didn't Relate Well To People My Age. Maybe The Truth Was That I Didn't Relate Well To People, Period. Even My Mother, Who I Was Closer To Than Anyone Else On The Planet, Was Never In Harmony With Me, Never On Exactly The Same Page. Sometimes I Wondered If I Was Seeing The Same Things Through My Eyes That The Rest Of The World Was Seeing Through Theirs. Maybe There Was A Glitch In My Brain.

But I Love You, “ He Whispered. “doesn't That Matter?” “of Course It Matters. So Much. Can't You See? That Only Makes It More… Necessary.” His Eyes Flashed Open. “is It So Unbearable To Have Me Love You? Is That It? I Can Keep My Mouth Shut, Wanda. I Won't Say It Again. You Can Be With Jared, If That's What You Want. Just Stay.

Maybe I Was What Leah Thought She Was. Some Kind Of Dead End That Shouldn’t Be Passed On To Another Generation. Or Maybe It Was Just That My Life Was A Big, Cruel Joke, And There Was No Escape From The Punch Line. -jacob

So, Instead Of Panicking, I Closed My Eyes And Spent The Twenty Minutes' Drive With Edward. I Imagined That I Had Stayed At The Airport To Meet Edward. I Visualized How I Would Stand On My Toes, The Sooner To See His Face. How Quickly, How Gracefully He Would Move Through The Crowds Of People Separating Us. And Then I Would Run To Close Those Last Few Feet Between Us - Reckless As Always - And I Would Be In His Marble Arms, Finally Safe.