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At The Time I Perceived Most Religious Men, Particularly The Pastors With All Their Talk About Love, Faith And Relationship, As Effeminate.

I Did Not Want To Reject Religion As Nonsense Because Life Seemed To Have No Ultimate Purpose Without It, And Most Of The Good People I Knew Were Christians.

My Habit Of Glorifying Things Far Away In Space And Time, Also Contributed To My Social Isolation.

I Decided To Take God And Organized Religion Seriously, And To Reject The Secular Life Which In My Teens Had Looked Attractive Because It Allowed Me To Act In Any Way That I Wanted.

I Teethed On Books Of Heroes Such As Winston Churchill, Abraham Lincoln And King David.