For Most Of My Life I Had

I'm Not Trying To Justify Myself, Or Say I'm Not Sorry, Or Not Contrite.

My Ruthless Desire To Win At All Costs Served Me Well On The Bike But The Level It Went To, For Whatever Reason, Is A Flaw. That Desire, That Attitude, That Arrogance.

Pain Is Temporary. Quitting Lasts Forever.

What Matters Is Ultimately What Collectively Those People On The Street - Whether That's The Cycling Community, The Cancer Community - It Matters What They Think.

The Ban Is Completely Out Of My Hands. And I Think In Most People's Minds, Even If It's Unrealistic To Them, It's One That I Left Myself With No Choice On.