Fear Is Priceless Education.

It's Frustrating In The Sense That I Still Think I Could Be Competing At Some Sport At A Fairly High Level, Which Nobody Cares About. Nobody Wants To Hear Me Say That.

Cycling Is So Hard, The Suffering Is So Intense, That It’s Absolutely Cleansing. The Pain Is So Deep And Strong That A Curtain Descends Over Your Brain….once; Someone Asked Me What Pleasure I Took In Riding For So Long. ‘pleasure???? I Said.’ ‘i Don’t Understand The Question.’ I Didn’t Do It For The Pleasure; I Did It For The Pain.

That Was My Decision, So I Have To Be Responsible For That. It Was One Of The Biggest Mistakes Of My Life And I Don't Have A Good Reason For Why I Wanted To Come Back, I Don't Have A Good Reason For Doing It All.

If You Go To Wikipedia And You Look At The Tour De France, There's This Huge Block In World War One With No Winners, And There's Another Block In World War Two. And Then It Seems Like There's Another World War.

I Didn't Invent The Culture, But I Didn't Try To Stop The Culture.